I have no words . . .

For a woman whose hobby is writing, it’s ironic that when I need words the most, they have deserted me.


Sorry, Mr. Skarsgard; I will do my best.

Let me start by saying that I think 4padfoot is an absolutely amazing woman who deserves all the praise in the world for what she managed to do this weekend and for what she plans to do in the future. Kudos to you my dear; I support you in whatever you do.

Plus, look what she made me this week.  🙂

11111918_10204596638619054_5529551086718586137_nThose eyes are hypnotic.  I could stare at them for days.

Sorry I got sidetracked.  Now for the hard part . . .

I am not a vain person nor have I ever needed someone to recognize my work. You can ask my bosses; every time they try to praise me, I brush it off. It’s not that I don’t appreciate their words; I do, but it makes me uncomfortable when people single me out for recognition.  Hell, the day I got married I wanted six people to walk me down the aisle so I wouldn’t be the center of attention. Of course, the big puffy white dress kind of made me the center of attention, but I wasn’t thinking about that.  I was thinking about the fact that everyone was staring at me as I walked, and I prayed that I didn’t trip in my flip flops.


In case you were wondering, I didn’t fall while walking down the aisle to my husband, but I did almost fall in the lake during the pictures afterwards because the photographer kept telling me to get closer to the water.

Go ahead and laugh; I know you want to.

It used to drive my boss insane when I was a wedding DJ because I would promote the other DJs and not myself. I would rather see someone else succeed than be in the spotlight myself. So when it came to the You Want Blood Awards, the only person I really wanted to see win was my beloved beta, Kleannhouse. Every week she betas whatever I send her. In addition to finding my mistakes, she leaves suggestions for things to make the story better. A few times she’s left me song lyrics because something I’ve written makes a song pop into her head.  I really wish I could let y’all see what goes back and forth between us when I write; some of it is TMI, but a lot of it is absolutely hysterical.

All of you must have heard my pleas for her to win, because you gave her second place for the Eagle Eye Award.  As happy as I was that she won, I was disappointed for my friend.  She works incredibly hard before I publish a story, but then she reads it again after it’s been published to make sure we didn’t miss something.

As much as I appreciate her beta skills, I value her friendship so much more. I don’t know where I would be without her.

So I have mixed emotions about winning first place for the Eagle Eye Award.  I’m glad that all of you value the work I do to help the women that I beta for: The Queen of Area Five, Kittyinaz, Kelpie, Magsmacdonald, American Android, MissRissa81 (when she writes, not that often), and I really hope I didn’t miss anyone. Forgive me if I did; it isn’t done intentionally, but I’m super tired after being outside all day.  Plus, I drank a half a bottle of rum while at a cookout.

You know when Jack Sparrow kept asking why is all the rum gone?  Well the answer is because I drank it!

I digress.

This is what alcohol does to people.

I was super excited though to see that y’all thought A Different Life was the Best of Both Worlds!  I still remember being so damn nervous when I published that first chapter. A Different Life was my second attempt at fanfiction. I had no idea what I was doing then, and I still cringe when I read parts of this story because I think I’ve drastically improved since my early days as a fanfic writer, but it means the absolute world to me that all of you thought this story deserved first place.  I wish I could hug all of you or give you all your very own Eric Northmans, but neither of those are an option.

Eric 7No Eric; you can’t possibly go all over the world thanking all the fanfic readers that voted for me.

Though something tells me he would die trying.

To be honest, the award that means the most to me is the third place for In His Honor.  I loved writing that family, so much so that I added a one shot after it was all finished.  And I may have ideas to add more . . .  Something about this family is near and dear to my heart.  A Different Life is special to me because it was my first (technically second, but the first was more to get my feet wet) story in the fandom, but In His Honor is my baby.

So in conclusion, thank you all very much for the recognition you have given me today. I am humbled and awestruck and a whole bunch of other things that I can’t think of the words to describe because sleepiness is overtaking my brain. I wish I had a story update for you, but I didn’t get much writing done this week. Hopefully next week we’ll get back to our regularly scheduled programming.



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About mj1028

What can I say? My little shipper heart hated how SVM and TB treated Eric, so I have made it my mission to create worlds where the Viking always gets the girl. :-)
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15 Responses to I have no words . . .

  1. WHOO HOO! You know how I feel about that Honor family. That was the first story I read of yours and the start of a beautiful friendship! Mags

  2. askarsgirl says:

    Congratulations, you deserve it!

  3. Congratulations! Well earned and well deserved. 🙂

  4. Congratulations. Your awards were well deserved and earned.

  5. ashmo2000 says:

    Congratulations, my dear! You more than deserve it!!

  6. msbuffy says:

    Congratulations! Very well deserved! I love that “In His Honor” won and was recognized on Memorial Day weekend. It makes it all the more special. 🙂

  7. VictoryInTrouble says:

    Congrats Jessica!

  8. kleannhouse says:

    well deserved wins my friend

  9. JJ says:

    Congrats!! You ALL worked hard and deserve recognition! 💐

  10. Tynee23 says:

    Good on ya! Keep up the good work.

  11. rainey girl says:

    Congrats! Well deserved recognition for your writing 🙂

  12. anem72 says:

    Congratulations! They were well deserved!

  13. Congratulations Jessica! Well deserved! A Different Life will always remain one of my favorites! And you are a kick-ass beta!

  14. redjane12 says:

    Not very related but read this totally touching video (I nearly cried) and made me think of your story In His Honour http://mashable.com/2015/06/01/police-officer-graduation-hug/ – not sure if this is very appropriate to post here so feel free to delete it if not so….

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